Monday, March 22, 2010

Dear Meloxicam (A break up letter)

Pain level: 5
Dislocations so far today: none so far
Subluxations so far today: Right shoulder a couple of times, right scapula once
Meds: meloxicam--2 tablets.
Major complaint: Stenosis pain, stiffness/pain/swelling in my fingers,
hand, and wrist (R>L)

Dear Meloxicam,

We tried to make this work. Things were great in the beginning. You
made a huge difference with my inflammation. I had mobility back in
my hands and you even helped me recover from my dislocations quicker
than before. But I guess the spark is gone.

The swelling started coming back. My right hand mostly, and it was
most pronounced in the morning. I had my appointment with my
Rheumatologist to talk about it. (He introduced us after all.) His
advice was the double your dose. Maybe I wasn’t seeing enough of you.
15 mg—the highest we could go. I had hoped it would be like our first
date all over again, but it wasn’t. Nothing really changed. Sure, my
back felt better that first morning, but everything else was the same.

From what he tells me, it’s not really your fault. It’s not you—it’s
me. Apparently it’s normal in situations like this for drugs like you
to just stop working. Sometimes things are great for months or years
and suddenly they aren’t anymore. The body just gets bored.
Sometimes the honeymoon is over within weeks, like with you and me.
And again, maybe you’re still doing your best, but the amount of
inflammation is just too much for you.

I started on Wednesday and this morning when I woke up, the swelling
was worse. The stiffness in my right hand is worse too. The skin on
my joints turns white when I try to bend my fingers. And it’s spread.
My entire right hand and my wrist are now swollen, sore, and itchy.

I made the phone call to Dr. E. I’m pretty sure he will advise that
it’s time for you and me to see other people.

Hand stiffness using middle finger has measure
Time: 1:43 PM
Can touch forearm? No. Ow!
Angle of extension of the center joint of finger: 40º
Angle of extension of the last joint of finger: 105º
Can touch forearm? Around 3 inches off. OW!
Angle of extension of the center joint of finger: 30º
Angle of extension of the last joint of finger: 100º

I’m not a fan of those numbers.


  1. As horrible as that is, I love the way you tell it.

    I hope you find something that works for you!

  2. Thanks, BubbleGirl. :) Filling my new prescription tomorrow, so we'll have to see how it goes.